H@ha !

So fast, time had gone so fast. Is August. I have been a Form 1 student for 8 months. In this 8 months, I really had many types of incident, that make me happy, sad, angry, disappointed and much much more. Haha! Today my friend say something weird happened. What happened? Is just her feeling. She say she finally know her real feeling. Is just like brother and sister. I heard and laugh but I am happy to hear that. I hope I can get a feeling like that too! Cause I never got a fake brother before! Haha! My Geography Project was really annoying. Finally I finished it. It makes me angry. Well, I cant scold it too, cause it is just some paper. No feeling. Not like human. Hope to be happy. I really did it. Hope my friends happy. Maybe my wish come true too! If all my wishes came true, how good was that!! Haha.......

Wh3n Th3 World Com3 To @n 3nd.......

When the world come to an end,
What will I have?
Will my wish come true before that day?
Will what I think that are not going to happen happened?
I don't know...

What am I doing?
I always ask myself.
If he can see my blog,
What will he feel?
If he saw her blog,
What will he feel?
Sad?
Disappointed?
Guilty?
Happy?
Angry?
I don't know.

He like her,
He was happy,
but how about us?
how about me?
Did he think about me?
Or he still don't know?
I don't know.

I really don't know !!
Who can help me?
Who? WHO !!
I don't know..................

Believe M3

I have a weird feeling. Don't know how to explain. Just feeling like many feeling spinning around me. I felt complicated. Well, I think i maybe know the reason, but I not really sure is it right. Maybe i have known the truth, and I still thinking of it. "You must let go!" I always tell myself. But I Don't know did I done that. I saw her, and me, I felt a shame. I am far far away from her. I cant be her challenger, I feel I am a stupid, A useless person. But what can I do? Ooohhhh.............. STOP THAT! I can't stand it anymore. I wish I can let my friends stop being hurt. She ask me to tell her, but I cant. I have promised him, as a friend before. And if she know, I am getting on trouble. I am not scare on him, I don't wan my friend get hurt anymore. Friend, let go please, let go. Believe me. You will feel better. Believe me, believe me........

To My B3st Fri3nd....

It's time for me to say my words again! Every time I write a blog, I felt more happy. Blog is just like a friend who lend me the ear, hear my heart. Sometimes I really got some problem that I cant solved by myself. I want to tell someone that can hear to me, but I don't have, even thought is my nearest family member like my mum, I cant open my mouth. When my friend ask me for doing a blog, I really interested. At first, I don't know what is it. After having it for sometime, I realized that it is apart of my live. So glad to have a blog. I saw my friend's blog, my good friend's blog. She scare she hurt me by accident because that "thing". I like to tell her, He's yours. I am just daydreaming of that "thing". I know he like somebody, and I am sure that's not me. It might be you, friend. Don't worry. And I wish our friendship will be always the best and not because of the "thing" and our friendship broke. If that happened, I am sure I will hate that "thing" forever. Remember, we are good friend. Anything will not broke our friendship. I will let go soon. Don't worry. I will not being hurt because of this. He's not mine......

Liv3, Is That 3asy To Stay @liv3 .....

Live is short, live is long. I don't know. In our live, we cant less 3 things, that is family's love, friendship and love.... Maybe the first 2 I have got it, but for me, a little secondary school student, the third love was the only 1 I will not get it yet. I really got like a "thing", but i cant get it. I know I cant get it, but..... I cant control my mind. My best friend had like the same thing with me. I think it is better if I can let go and give my friend the chance. I really know I cant get it, cant get it..... Love, is it a useless thing for me now? I think yes. It might be useless for me. It might cause me I danger. Sometimes I think that he know I like that thing. I am serious. Maybe that's good. He will when away from me far away. If I can stop watching him for ages, I think I can let go. If we really can, I think I will have chance when older. Well, hope him will be healthy and happy always.....

Nervouss....

Oh No!! I am getting nervous. I am going to have my piano exam tomorrow. I scare cause I always felt that I didn't prepared well yet. But it is the eleventh hour, no more time for me to think more. Hope I will have a kind examiner... Sometimes I felt some of my friends are annoying. They always come to me and say nonsense again and again. I wish they could be more quite and not so annoying to me. Maybe someone will think I am selfish. I really is a selfish person. I dont have too many things for my friends, just hope they will know. I cant control my mind. Think about something that are not going to happen but never think about things that are important sometimes..... Just like..... too many. Cant finish telling. Hope my wish will come true everyday. Hope person that I love like my family and that "thing"..... happy always, healthy always, smile always !!

Ohh.. Gosh ...

Oh..... Hope holiday come quickly. I cant stand the classes. I nearly fall asleep today at school. The class is boring. My 2 cousin sister came to my house today. They are from UK. They told me that they only take a book to school. I was thinking how good was it if Malaysia did that too... Haha ... It might be weird..... Oh well.... I miss my 2 cousin sister. They are going back soon cause their summer holiday are going to finish. I hope to go UK and see how their life is... Well, It might be different with Malaysia. Hope they come again too.... Oh gosh... Oh my.... Ohh.... Alright. Going to sleep soon..... Tomorrow need to go friend's house for school things... Oh no......... Miss that ......