Uuhh......

Actually ...... I have many things in my heart but I never say it out before. It might make me hurt sometimes. But I cant even found a people that suitable to say it out, so I chose to be quite. I take it myself. I hurt myself cause I don't want others to hurt. Some of you might say I am talking something not what I thinking. Never mind. I want something simple, make me feel happy, relaxing and 1 indeed friend. I think I got all of it. That feeling was great. I really have something that my friend was guessing. They guess it right or guess it wrong, I never ever tell them the truth. Sorry guys. I only say the truth to the 1 I really really can trust. Not I don't trust them, is I feel I not yet really know them.I always pray to the god and say please take care of who I love. I hope they can be healthy, happy and things good happen but things bad don't happen. Lolz...... LOVE? Zzzzzzz.............

Ha?

Today I was quite tired as I went out from home the whole day. I only can rest after my BM tuition. My dad took me, my mum and my grandma to service his car, omg is really hot. The weather change suddenly always. sometimes rain very heavily, after a while, it stopped and the sun shined brightly. Lolz..... I told my mum all the front of the car was like a rat. The light was the eye, the logo was the nose and the car number was the teeth.... I was thinking to say "It is a rat!", But i didn't did it as I was thinking of it does not have feeling.. Ya, is a car, not a rat. And also we are human, not a rat. Ya, we have feeling too, but rat does not think too much like us. We think something that make us headache. Lol, so am I..... Tomorrow have to go school. Got a bit excited but a bit boring. Tomorrow need to go school early, but can come homw early, YEAH! I better go sleep. Bye!!

Holiday,,,

Today got a bit boring. Teacher gave us make Tangram. It is fun but I always do until headache. Sometimes do until don't want to do. Haiz..... Play games, watch television and tuition, that's all for my holiday. How board is this! Thinking of my friends at school. Wish to go to school to meet them but I lazy to study. Haha! But what can I do? I cannot control the world. If can how good was that. Lolx......... Holiday boring, study also boring. Haiz..... Well, I also got more time to practise on my piano. Haha! Want to go watch movie le! Bye!!

^^

Holiday came. I am going to relax during cause all my homework had done! Hoho! I had done my homework until 1pm going to 2pm on Thursday. Is tired that day cause got tuition. Now relax . So nice. It will be more better if no tuition during holidays. It will not happen at least during the year-end school holiday. Got a bit boring also because no friend chat. Just watch television and play games on internet, board... Study tired, never study boring, haiz.... Well, still need to stay alive, lolz... Later still got tuition. Haiz....... Today write little only cause nothing to write. Bye~

Boring........

So fast. I also did not realized that is going to holiday. Today something weird happened on me. My friend say something bad about me that I did not do it. I felt fated.. I finally know how my classmate is... I cant call them "friends" anymore cause I cant confirm are they my real "friends". Am I wrong or they really not my type of "friends"? I don't know. Now I finally knew many things I don't know in this live.... Live is good, simple, easy. If we have good thinking. But I think my good thinking is just a bit. Nothing to say this few days. But bad news are spinning around of me. H1N1, flood at China and lots of thing that happen. The world had changed, really changed.... Is the end of the day coming soon? Why people want to develop so fast? I hate them..... Hate them...............

Lucky ! Huh !

I love 1 song. It is "Lucky" by Jason Mraz & Colbie Cailat. I am thinking of I will fall in love with my best friend someday. It might be weird! Haha!

Lucky
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

H@ha !

So fast, time had gone so fast. Is August. I have been a Form 1 student for 8 months. In this 8 months, I really had many types of incident, that make me happy, sad, angry, disappointed and much much more. Haha! Today my friend say something weird happened. What happened? Is just her feeling. She say she finally know her real feeling. Is just like brother and sister. I heard and laugh but I am happy to hear that. I hope I can get a feeling like that too! Cause I never got a fake brother before! Haha! My Geography Project was really annoying. Finally I finished it. It makes me angry. Well, I cant scold it too, cause it is just some paper. No feeling. Not like human. Hope to be happy. I really did it. Hope my friends happy. Maybe my wish come true too! If all my wishes came true, how good was that!! Haha.......

Wh3n Th3 World Com3 To @n 3nd.......

When the world come to an end,
What will I have?
Will my wish come true before that day?
Will what I think that are not going to happen happened?
I don't know...

What am I doing?
I always ask myself.
If he can see my blog,
What will he feel?
If he saw her blog,
What will he feel?
Sad?
Disappointed?
Guilty?
Happy?
Angry?
I don't know.

He like her,
He was happy,
but how about us?
how about me?
Did he think about me?
Or he still don't know?
I don't know.

I really don't know !!
Who can help me?
Who? WHO !!
I don't know..................

Believe M3

I have a weird feeling. Don't know how to explain. Just feeling like many feeling spinning around me. I felt complicated. Well, I think i maybe know the reason, but I not really sure is it right. Maybe i have known the truth, and I still thinking of it. "You must let go!" I always tell myself. But I Don't know did I done that. I saw her, and me, I felt a shame. I am far far away from her. I cant be her challenger, I feel I am a stupid, A useless person. But what can I do? Ooohhhh.............. STOP THAT! I can't stand it anymore. I wish I can let my friends stop being hurt. She ask me to tell her, but I cant. I have promised him, as a friend before. And if she know, I am getting on trouble. I am not scare on him, I don't wan my friend get hurt anymore. Friend, let go please, let go. Believe me. You will feel better. Believe me, believe me........

To My B3st Fri3nd....

It's time for me to say my words again! Every time I write a blog, I felt more happy. Blog is just like a friend who lend me the ear, hear my heart. Sometimes I really got some problem that I cant solved by myself. I want to tell someone that can hear to me, but I don't have, even thought is my nearest family member like my mum, I cant open my mouth. When my friend ask me for doing a blog, I really interested. At first, I don't know what is it. After having it for sometime, I realized that it is apart of my live. So glad to have a blog. I saw my friend's blog, my good friend's blog. She scare she hurt me by accident because that "thing". I like to tell her, He's yours. I am just daydreaming of that "thing". I know he like somebody, and I am sure that's not me. It might be you, friend. Don't worry. And I wish our friendship will be always the best and not because of the "thing" and our friendship broke. If that happened, I am sure I will hate that "thing" forever. Remember, we are good friend. Anything will not broke our friendship. I will let go soon. Don't worry. I will not being hurt because of this. He's not mine......

Liv3, Is That 3asy To Stay @liv3 .....

Live is short, live is long. I don't know. In our live, we cant less 3 things, that is family's love, friendship and love.... Maybe the first 2 I have got it, but for me, a little secondary school student, the third love was the only 1 I will not get it yet. I really got like a "thing", but i cant get it. I know I cant get it, but..... I cant control my mind. My best friend had like the same thing with me. I think it is better if I can let go and give my friend the chance. I really know I cant get it, cant get it..... Love, is it a useless thing for me now? I think yes. It might be useless for me. It might cause me I danger. Sometimes I think that he know I like that thing. I am serious. Maybe that's good. He will when away from me far away. If I can stop watching him for ages, I think I can let go. If we really can, I think I will have chance when older. Well, hope him will be healthy and happy always.....

Nervouss....

Oh No!! I am getting nervous. I am going to have my piano exam tomorrow. I scare cause I always felt that I didn't prepared well yet. But it is the eleventh hour, no more time for me to think more. Hope I will have a kind examiner... Sometimes I felt some of my friends are annoying. They always come to me and say nonsense again and again. I wish they could be more quite and not so annoying to me. Maybe someone will think I am selfish. I really is a selfish person. I dont have too many things for my friends, just hope they will know. I cant control my mind. Think about something that are not going to happen but never think about things that are important sometimes..... Just like..... too many. Cant finish telling. Hope my wish will come true everyday. Hope person that I love like my family and that "thing"..... happy always, healthy always, smile always !!

Ohh.. Gosh ...

Oh..... Hope holiday come quickly. I cant stand the classes. I nearly fall asleep today at school. The class is boring. My 2 cousin sister came to my house today. They are from UK. They told me that they only take a book to school. I was thinking how good was it if Malaysia did that too... Haha ... It might be weird..... Oh well.... I miss my 2 cousin sister. They are going back soon cause their summer holiday are going to finish. I hope to go UK and see how their life is... Well, It might be different with Malaysia. Hope they come again too.... Oh gosh... Oh my.... Ohh.... Alright. Going to sleep soon..... Tomorrow need to go friend's house for school things... Oh no......... Miss that ......

没有妈妈的星期六。。。

啊！！妈妈回来啦。。星期六是我妈妈到吉隆坡的一天。妈妈和外婆到吉隆坡参加一个亲戚的结婚典礼。那一天妈妈的工作都被“丢”到我，哥哥和爸爸的身上来。。妈妈一上巴士，开始相恋妈妈煮的食物。想到两天三餐都要吃外面的食物，开始有点反胃的感觉。。。一上车，爸爸竟然告诉我从英国回来的阿姨现在在吉隆坡！！我吓呆了。爸爸说阿姨要给我妈妈和外婆一个惊喜，所以他没有说出来。爸爸叫我把我那乱七八糟房间给收拾好。很开心我两个表妹可以回来。很久没有看到他们了。那天晚上我似乎以整晚都在想他们，连那个“东西”也好像忘了。。。^^